◈Sunrim's world--迹·忆·锈斑--珍友の环◈

在国内的日子开始个位倒数……

那天坐上回上海的飞机时，心里就预感重返袋鼠国前的滋味肯定不怎么样。

前两天出去的K歌的时候偶然看到一个MV，唱歌的女人很像她，很像~
开始逃避她，感觉已经是有阵子的事了，很多事情我们总是各人有个人的“以为……”，尽管现实总是爱一遍又一遍的嘲弄我们的期望。
抱头鼠窜对于今天的我们再熟练不过，一个完美的自我开脱也总能让我们瘫软在意淫的快感失去意识。

昏迷的久了，就连自己都搞不清是梦是醒，就好像当初选择出国做梦。 开始还清醒地告诉自己，为了将来，现在要努力补觉休息。结果睡得久了，回到熟悉的地方，

捏自己脸时发现竟没有了痛感。开始抓头，又欲借发雌找回醒着的感觉，但不知是运气不好还是人真的灭了，屡次发疯未遂。依旧一脸尴尬，一脑莫名。
想找人解惑：当梦变成现实，现梦相易时该如何作对？

自然，没有人能回答…… 原因自然也是找不到合适的人提问

环顾四周，在友人间试图寻找答案。结果也如不入流的小说，答案没找着，反到发现大家也都彼此彼此，睡在每个人自己的“以为”里。
好吧，各位我们一切照旧……

恩~ 又花了一个下午的时间去敬献申城的梅雨……  算是浪费生命吧，不过说起来还是上海的雨来的女人~

哼~　女人……

 Just finish an old firm,  failed to recall the end so review it again, that's is ~~~

 Since the courses wound up,  a big surplus of time does give me chance to think about some things. but gradually, i find those i considered were really far from what  expected.

 ……

 well, i was stoped by a another firm which was saw as well.  

 "Omg，he’s trying to recall me！But just get a wrong way！！！"  a really lovely monstrous girl said。but meanwhile that guy is just just trying to escape, actually!

yes, a monstrous girl, she dose has an oafish looking that time and she is undergoing a ridiculous love too. however, I was impressed by this scene and those words.

what did he do with the girl's love! he blenchs or even trying to run away from her!  

…… undoubtedly, the spoony girl was hurt by that guy.

all right, the story turns, the monstrous girl become a beauty~

then everything turn around... the bleeding man fell in love with the girl that time, but as the beauty said when she was not good looking she would not give that guy one more chance if he expel her again whatever......

 i was shocked, and just realized that how similar it is!  i did turn away some girls just mainly because of their exterior! even because of her dislikeful friend.  i am afraid of those comments and scandals.  whether am i going to love her is depends on others' comments rather than how much i like her!! 

what did i do!?!  what hell!!! 

even worse, some of them do changes like the girl in the frim. and i did regret!
 ......

i should apologize to them for what f**king i did ......

    ...... Sorry ......

well, of course i got what i should.  i just let the girl slipped while i was able to do nothing!!!  i was tampered by the fate. i feel the afflictive scratch when the time goes.  actually, it seems i know what outcome will be, i just waited for the moment she go and undertook it stilly...... Despite how hard i did, i am still just able to lost it deservedly.  tears didn't come as expected, and i'm still in never out, feeling what i due.

who knows those in the wake of my smile, the feeling of belonging to my monstrous heart.

that i surrender even reluctantly......

humm, i am trying to change~

out of the house, haze in the sky, i feel the wind between fingers. So peaceful, something familiar~

 where am i?  what am i doing? 

always be asked but always be shifted off by myself ~

cause i know the present answer are fully ridiculous. 

i'm lost in the maze of waiting for my girl while i am raising a girl for a wretch morally!~~~

i know it's incredible, but that's what i'm doing! 

such as i study abroad for working in white as a bread maker!

i gave up what i had in Shanghai, left my friends just for a bleeding country PR ~

it makes me feel like the reality is laughing at my plan, my dream

Or vice versa ……

so much to mention ...

but can't find the words ......

when live is wilder than the wind ~

            ......